im up @ 3am

decided to revisite this blog….

i’ve been writing in my multiply blog page and not publishing it like forever….  since my cousins might see it hehehe

i know i know… theres an option to select recipients… but thats just too damn hard to do… for me at least…

anyway…. back to work today… after the long weekend holy week for 2009 that i spent at home with yael….

i’ve been waking up before dawn since friday and i don’t know why… argh!

last night i ha a nightmare….  i was at marinduque with mama allen’s family…. then there was a tidal wave… from a high place we were watching it destory houses near the shore….  we were in a safe place… until i realized that i wasn’t with yael…

i felt helpless… nobody knew where he was…. then i woke up…

yael was sleeping peacefully beside me….

i hugged him to death…

then he pushed me away…. 

back to sleep…

another dream (sort of nightmare?)… whats wrong with my subconcious… 

i called you again…then you said you had to get married…. this girl asked you to and you had no choice… i pretended to be nonchalant about it…. then i woke up… with angst… hehehe

now i’m here writing about it….

well… just had to let it out ….